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portrait of the artist as a rancorous constipate

I am shitposting (literal) again. congratulate me, for I've been having some extremely large and alarming shits. about two months ago I decided to re-embark on a colonic journey to make my elimination of solid waste far more regular and less anxiety-inducing. so far things I have tried include: using a standing desk at work…Read more portrait of the artist as a rancorous constipate

morningpage.13 (security, hard water, acid reflux)

this is what counts as broad daylight t f does niceness count for hard water and the cold steal all flavour out your mouth I like it but I don't like it that much don't picture my body don't trivial pursue my mind I'm lying if I say I'm lying with her between the biblical lines you…Read more morningpage.13 (security, hard water, acid reflux)

morningpage.11 (whiteboards, made up snack packaging, impostor syndrome, bleach times)

Amanda F. Palmer and the Art of Being Seen on thoroughly parsing eye contact 'i like everything you are saying with this look you are making me  nervous' - found on the underground whiteboards, 26th november 2016: my heart is at ease knowing that which was meant for me will never escape me and that which…Read more morningpage.11 (whiteboards, made up snack packaging, impostor syndrome, bleach times)

morningpage.07 (harry potter, spinal column, tinfoil, snoring)

I am learning / to flick a knife open with / one hand I am holding / my breath / for no reason until I calm / all the halfway down I am content / sharing this burrito / with you I cannot take / this much / bliss with me / into the tomb…Read more morningpage.07 (harry potter, spinal column, tinfoil, snoring)

morningpage.05 (tenga egg cell, pcos, azngrrls)

conventionalised caramels. a balding woman. a balding man. your lover not so much bursting through double metal doors as careening slightly. the airport pulling on your eyebags. sick-footed triumph. you're not as young as you used to be. you waited for a long time and you thought it meant something no one told you that all…Read more morningpage.05 (tenga egg cell, pcos, azngrrls)

morningpage.04 (chaos, lesbians, advice to the self, quotidian, feminisms)

I'm too damn cheap to burn bedsheets or bridges I take my chances with cuffed fists say they're leaving and majestic seeping train tunnels looking like I'm ragging on the genitals of people I hate it's just that the cunt colouring book reminded me of you so much and you should probably go get that checked…Read more morningpage.04 (chaos, lesbians, advice to the self, quotidian, feminisms)

morningpage.03 (boringnesses, illiteracy, predatory people, necromancy)

today I am thinking about what it is like to be a hard-up stand-up about whether people from hawaii really do speak slower because they are laid-back no one wants to be a caricature imagine me, coarse hands and a bubble butt, imagine being able to skateboard perfectly and using it as leverage or a substitute for…Read more morningpage.03 (boringnesses, illiteracy, predatory people, necromancy)

morningpage.02 (the origin of love, tate museum, retail therapy, personal conflict)

HOW TO NOT BE SEEN how not to be seen: a fucking didactic wannabe pastiche of ruination and colour. boyish haircuts and the need to grasp your wallet close to you. I am not so much falling in love with london as she is pulling me close to her as we pass under a flyblown lamp in…Read more morningpage.02 (the origin of love, tate museum, retail therapy, personal conflict)